Well, this is awkward.
Its been over a year since I seriously and consistently engaged on social media. The reason I didn’t make an official announcement about leaving the online world is because it wasn’t something I planned to do. It just happened.
WHY I LEFT
So why did I leave?
firstly | 2020 was just a bit overwhelming
The division online was simply too much.
Between the content highlighting the worldwide crazy and the content almost ignoring it completely, I somehow found myself frustrated with both.
While I didn’t choose escapism entirely, I needed space and time to think – to process.
secondly | I had moved into an RV full-time and was traveling cross-country with my hubby and two littles, 2 + 4yrs
While I knew our new lifestyle would make for great “content” and would probably help me grow my platform, I couldn’t bring myself to share about it while most people were locked down in their homes.
I’m trying to teach my oldest not to tease with something she’s enjoying and someone else does not have. And while I wouldn’t have intentionally been gloating, it seemed insensitive to share and admit to having one of the best years of my life while so many were having their worst.
thirdly | I had a surprise pregnancy!
Life on the road plus pregnancy hormones and exhaustion made it doubly difficult to think about content creation. When I wasn’t adventuring and caring for the kiddos, you may have found me asleep in any odd place or putting random things in the refrigerator (pregnancy brain is real!).
THE NOT-SO-SURPRISING BENEFITS OF LEAVING
Before I share why I’m coming back, I do want highlight the ways I benefited from taking such a long holiday from the social media world. Unplugging made it possible to:
- be fully present with my family
- protect my mental and emotional health considering everything going on in the world and the fact that I was prego!
- enjoy our travel without any added pressure for our adventures to “look” a certain way for social media sharing
- gain wonderful clarity about my life and where I want to take my YouTube channel and blog in the years to come 🙂
- feel closer to God
The year away was both glorious and gloriously hard all at the same time.
While I wasn’t within the verbal line of fire of a divided culture on social media, the weight and reality of the nationwide chaos laid heavily on me like a blanket of general sadness many times.
The glorious part was I could get lost in a new place, often a place of incredible natural wonder and beauty. Plus I had ever-changing neighbors. Most were so friendly and kind – welcomed distractions from the mainstream turmoil and discord.
WHAT MADE ME COME BACK
It was wonderful to have the break, but I’m coming back because I have exciting things to share that are full of hope and beauty.
Is the world still crazy? Yes! It sure is. Would it be easier to stay away from social media? Probably. That’s why I’m back with boundaries: In short, I’m going to focus more on creating than consuming content, endeavor to engage within a designated time each day, take mini breaks as needed, and be more selective with accounts I follow and platforms I use.
So what’s next? All I can tell you at this point is keep a lookout. Below you’ll find a bit of a teaser. =)
IT’S HARD TO STOP | additional musings
When you’re in the world of content creation, it’s a scary thing to stop. You feel like you’ll lose momentum and pause (if not reverse) your progress. And it’s that sort of fear that can keep you going, even past red flags.
When I stopped, I realized that I had been walking on a bit of treadmill. I was taking steps, building muscle and stamina, but I wasn’t going anywhere.
It was valuable training, but I feel like now is the time to take that training to the trail. I know the direction I want to go. I can’t foresee all the adventures, opportunities, turns and discoveries along the way, but that is half if not 95% of the fun of it!
And you want to know one of the best parts of it? You’re invited!
I’m inviting you to dare to slow down in order to really live. Yes, to step off the well-beaten path that has become a paved road in order to enter into the wild, maybe blaze a trail or two. Who knows what lovely things we may discover together!